Back to the Gym

Joining my local gym tomorrow which is long overdue I hate putting weight on and these tablets I am on for my mental health put weight on. Don't ask me how but they do I have heard a few people say that their meds make them overweight especially depression tablets. 

So why am I joining the gym now and not after Christmas simply because I need to start now and by the time after Christmas rolls around I would have put more weight on and its more to lose! 

I'm a little nervous about joining the gym again yes nervous simply because I am quite overweight at the moment and most of my gym stuff which I have loads of doesn't fit me at the moment and so I am going to have to go in leggings and a big baggy t-shirt for the time being. So why put yourself through it newt well I have to for my well being I am becoming increasingly worse with my agoraphobia and simply I'm a hermit right now I need to get out there and the gym seems to me to be a good way of shedding some of my fear and my weight. 

I know that the first few times I go I will feel like a fish out of water and want to go home but I am determined to stick at it and make it work as I know the results will be worth it and I feel it will also benefit my mental health in the long run. 

I used to go to the gym all the time in 2017/18 but 2019 has just been a nightmare and I am determined that 2020 will be better for me. 

Don't let fear get in the way and I am determined to beat my mental health this time I am sick of sitting at home so scared to do anything due to my worsening mental health so its time to take control and only I can do that so joining the gym it is. 

I shall keep you updated on my journey